..I hate jerkoffs.
I recently managed to get an account on FOBRocks.
and I had my icon which was a joke..
and someone says, “Suicide isn’t a joke bitch.”
…I think I’d know.
..This complete stranger has got my hands shaking.
I feel like crying.
I know that it is.
But..I have to take care of my sadness and because I’m such a funny person at times I do it through humor.
But even then people have to yell at me.
It’s annoying.
I didn’t do it on purpose just to annoy that one person.
I honestly didn’t.
I feel so stupid now.
I’m listening to this really pretty song on RBC called “Reminsicence”..
it’s just making me sadder.
It’s so pretty..
If only people were songs..
then they’d all be pretty..
no matter what.
No one would judge them.
I feel so worthless now..
I know it’ll pass.
But it’s still here now.
*sighs*
I can only take my humor so far…
and even when I don’t people still hate it.
I JUST CAN’T FUCKING STAND IT.
WHY do people have to judge others?
Why?! WHY WHY WHY?!
This person doesn’t even KNOW me and s/he accuses me of shit.
It’s..so..frustrating..
I just..
I just….
I wanna be accepted for who I am. But then..people..don’t want me to be who I am save for a few.
I’m so scared of growing up. So scared of being who I am. If I fight with my friends I get so scared..so scared that they’ll hate me forever. I hate having to be scared.
I’m so confused..
I can only hold on for so long before I come crashing down and there’s a possibility you won’t be there to catch me.
Okay…
I just read
the most STUPID ASS THREAD EVER TO EXIST.
“I HVE PETER’S MOM’S PHONE NUMBER!!!”
LYKE OMFGZZZ J00 ARE TEH COOLEST.
I hate people like this.
It’s slowly pissing me off.
If I could get a damn account on FOBR I would be flaming the aboselute shit out of these jerkoffs/creeps.
I might like the band and to a certain degree, Peter.
But, I am not to the point of going around saying shit like “OMFGZZZZ PETER IS HOTT111!!! I HVE HIS PHONE #1!!! LYKE OMG!!”
Nor will I EVER be.
Because it’s stupid and an invasion of his damn privacy.
And ontop of THAT..apparently people are talking about Peter’s family and friends.
WTF IS UP WITH YOU DAMN SO CALLED FUCKING ‘FANS’?!
I might be a new fan..
But at least I have something called fucking ‘respect’ you stupid fucks.
If you ‘love’ Peter so goddamn much you’ll respect his fucking privacy and leave him the hell alone. Respect his goddamn wishes.
Respect him.
You all are FAILING to grasp this simple little thing.
And it’s slowly pissing me off. I’m sure it’s pissing other actual FANS off as well.
It’s annoying as HELL.
…..
fucking bastards.
yea..I’m pissed.
-<3 Sara
“I hate you. Not just dislike
I love to lurk at the FOBrocks message board.
All of the bastards on there are completemorons, save for maybe one or two.
The boards get spammed x1000000000000000. The higher post count you have…the better you are.
Oh..
we can’t forget the “omigggoooddzzzzz!!1111one!!!! petar is s0000 h0t! i ishh gun hve his babbiieeeezzz!!! wha?! he hs a gf?!?!?!111// FCK DAT BITCH!!11 PETAR IS MINE!!111
MINE!! MINE MINE MINE!1111111111111!!!!!!”
…
I know, I’m a bitch.
But still,
The fact remains that the board is fucked up beyond ANYTHING.
I mean, I just read a board on how everyone on the board hates emos. That Pete is infact an Emo. The fact no one the board gives a shit.
Then the boardies came on were like “NA-UH!!! WE TOTALLYZ CARE!! WE NOTICED THAT TOO!!”
and “THIS IS A FUCKING STUPID BOARD!! GO AWAY YOU STUPID FUCK!”*
Yea..
I TOLD you they were fucktards.
And on the BAND message board there is crap about PANIC!
Don’t get me wrong…I love Panic!
BUT IT’S A DAMN FALL OUT BOY MESSAGE BOARD!!!!!!
I KNOW THAT PANIC! IS ON PETE’S RECORD LABEL…
…..
BUT THEY’RE NOT FALL OUT BOY!!!!!!!
UNLESS THE GUYS DRESS UP AS THEM OR VICE VERSA.
Yea..
….
god damn stupid retards!
>______<
I’m out to listen to Panic!
-<3 Sara
I’ve got a heartache
Cuz you want a love break
P.S
Go look at Panic!’s new video, “I write sins not tragedies.” on Yahoo Music Videos. I know I’m totally whoring it, but Panic! rocks. The song rocks. The damn video rocks.
So I command you to watch it.
Biatch.
I am a ‘poser’.
Yes that’s right folkies; Sara is a ‘poser’.
At least according to Casey’s resident gothic wanna be’s.
*giggle*
People amuse me. I laugh at them. *giggle*
They need to go fuck themselves up the ass.
Anyyywwaaaayyysssss…zzzz.
JV won our Scholar Bowl match yesterday by 105 points. ((w00t)). Then Varisty lost by 5. ((Mr.Pulley let me play on Varisty as well as my usual captianing of JV :DDD))
Soooo yea.
I need to get working on my Young Authors book. It’s not even NEAR completetion. ((Okay..it SORTA is..
Sorta.))
Yeaso.
We get off at 11:30 on Fri. Cool eh?
Yea..sometimes I wuuuuv my school.
Not really but hey! The thought counts, right?
Riiiight.
Okay, I’m hungray and I need food…and I need to get ready for school. As much as I DON’T WANNA.
Well, I DO want to eat. I don’t wanna get ready for school tho.
…….
I really either need to get a life…or more sleep.
Either one.
Yea..
Oh! Yesterday I was dancing during Block I.
Emma hit me for it..
and told me to stop dancing…
….D:<
….EVIL MUNCHKIN OF d0000000m!
Right, bye now.
<3 Sara
You sit there and complain.
I sit there and laugh at your stupidity.
I stare at you through the window
and you don’t see me.
Funny how the guy always ends up being the rich one.
If a girl rejects a guy, he ends up becoming rich.
I’ve never seen this happen with a girl.
too bad.
So sad.
Let’s go skip through a field with daisys, yes?
And live happily ever after.
If only life was like that..
<3 Sara
*EDIT* Today’s gonna be shitty; I can tell because I just found out the Chicago show for the Black Clouds and Underdogs tour is sold out. 
dammit..I really wanted to see Fall Out Boy….shoot..dammit..
I hate it when it’s the weekend and I have no school..
…and I wake up at six.
….
GRRRRRRNESSSS.
*growls*
Yea..Jeff’s a jerk.
He needs to fuck off.
Like now.
He GROWLED at me on Thursday.
GROWLEDDDD!!
HE FUCKING GROWLED.
o.o
Yea anyways.
He told me (thru a note peoples) to listen to “Behind these Hazel Eyes.” and that’s how he felt. WHEN I TOLD HIM STRAIGHT-FUCKING-OUT THAT I DID NOT MEAN TO HURT HIM.
GRRRR guys get me SO mad sometimes!
It’s no wonder I’m attracted to chicks at times..
*foams*
Yea..on the subject of guys on my nerves: Dom and Brendan..
OMFG…THOSE TWO..NEED..TO QUIT..MAKING..SEXUAL..JOKES…
ABOUT A DAMN FLAG!!!!!!
Wow..this is turning out to be a rant so here:
Everyone skipped through the field of flowers singing.
The End.
Yea..I’m half ready to tell Jeff to buy UTCT and listen to all the damn songs.
Show HIM how I feel.
Biatch.
……*goes off to lurk on places because I have nothing better to do..*
*sighs*
<3 Sara
Yea..I get to go bowling..
Oh fucking joy.
and it’s not gonna be normal bowling :O
IT’LL BE GLO BOWL!!
LYKE OMGZ!!
*foam*
*foamfoam*
…..
I hate my school.
I also hate getting up at like 2 in the morning, going to the bathroom not even really knowing what the hell I’m doing, and then launching myself back in bed only to get up at 6:25 five minutes away from when my alarm clock’ll go off.
REALLY ANNOYING.
Yeaso.
I also have practice this afternoon; ugh.
Oh! And we get to watch..*fake gasp* JOHNNY TREMAIN!!!!!!
LIKE OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111111111111
…did I mention I DESPISE MY SCHOOL WITH A FIREY VENGANCE!!?!
Because I do.
I reeaaalllyyyy hate it.
Yea……..
Anyway; Emma said she’s not gonna hit meh for TWO DAYS for breaking up with Jeff ((Hint: She does not like Jeff…in anyway..I literally have to go “STOP EFFING HITTING EACH OTHER YOU STUPIDHEADS” before one of them’ll actually stop, look at me and go “S/HE HIT ME FIRST!”
Blah..
I’m grumpy..
and I need my mountain dew…
OR SOMETHING. I want coffee too…but I’m lazy and don’t feel like making it…
Pshh..
Okays…got my mountain deeewwwww.
Hehe.
Yea…
Welllllll, thas about it…
I need to go get ready n’ stuff…
……………………………………………..
Leaving…..NOW.
<3 Sara
“I’ll be your Juliet if you’ll be my Romeo, we’ll die together with dagger and vial in hand.”
It’s funny how some people look at their reflections in mirrors.
Only to smash their hand in it five seconds later; mad at what stares back at them.
I broke up with Jeff.
He’s fucking mopy now.
At least to me he is..
Then he asked what song we danced to at the dance..
((it was Perfect by SP))
If he tries to get me back he’s in for a rude awakening..
Sorry; it’s the truth.
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll wake up in the morning. It scares me. I only have five years left, living with my dad.
Then I’ll be 18.
Wondering if I’ll wake up in the morning will be an even bigger concern then.
It’s scary growing up. You don’t know if you’ll make it past say..10..or even 17. You could easily make a mistake a sploosh, you’re dead.
Scary.
All my life I’ve lived knowing I was going to BE something. I KNOW I’m going to be something. It’s a refreshing thought.
But when I have an ex..who when we dated was scarily obbessed with me..
Life is even scarier.
Granted; I doubt he’ll do something at 13..
But when he gets older, I can’t KNOW if he won’t come after me.
and if I actually am in a band or if I really AM a famous writer..
Finding me won’t be hard…
Sometimes you can’t wait to grow up..other times you want time to stop; to stand still so you can bask in the youngness of youth.
Some people can’t wait to die.
Others are afraid of death..
I’m both..I wanna know what happens when you die yet..
Dieing is such a scary thought. You’re leaving behind so many people..you don’t know what’s gonna happen. And..and, when the earth is destroyed or whatever..your body is STILL gonna be buried..
You’ll just…disapear..
People don’t care enough anymore..
They’re more concerned about THEIR needs and what THEY want.
Don’t get me wrong; I can be concieted when I want to be..
..but…at the same time..
People are caring less and less..
They don’t CARE what Bush is doing. They only CARE about the fact nothing is happening to THEM DIRECTLY, yet.
They never care unless it hurts them directly.
Then we care.
Then we cry.
Then we scream out in pain and ask “WHY?! WHY THE FUCK?”
Point of this whole weird post: I’m scared. I’m scared of so many things..
None of which I can really change..
and the fact I can’t is scary as well..
Maybe I wrote all this because I’m almost a teenager..
Who knows…
Oh well…
<3 Sara.
We won our first away match.
By 130 points.
woo.
go us.
blah.
I joined this thingy: www.friendsorenemies.com
Pretty neat site.
Hehe.
Haw Haw.
Yea so, It’s only Monday and I’m tired.
Sad.
We get to go..*GASPS* BOWLING ON THURSDAY. OMGZ LOL ROFL!!!
….
boring.
Ya..teh CO guys are coming back tomorrow.
“WHAS MY NAME!?”
“CO!!”
Why do I have a feeling these dudes are NOT the submissive ones during sex?
Weird thought, I know.
*sighs*
Last time..Katherine got a hug from one of them.
She likes the black guy..I think his name is Carl..
…she says he’s “buff”.
HE WORKS IN A FUCKING PRISON.
I’D HOPE HE IS KIND OF BUFF…
*cough*
Yea..
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v114/fauxfaia/ummhokay.jpg
That.is.disturbing.beyond.anything.
Makes meh wanna cry.
*cries*
*sniffles*
Okay, done.
I’m off to go get something to drink.
Bye Bye biatches! 
<3
It’s funny how much fun, two girls can have, skating..watching silly romance movies and eating ice cream.
This weekend was fun. I’m gonna miss Emma.
MOVIES WE WATCHEDED:
Romy and Michelle’s High School Reunion:
Semi-okay movie. Bit dull at times..
Love Potion #9:
I didn’t really LOVE this one. There were some pretty funny parts ((like when the one..slut…chick drank the undiluted potion shtuff..))
Romeo + Juliet:
THE best movie. Me and Emma cried at the end. And we kept on screaming at the T.V.
“SAY SOMETHING YOU IDIOT!!!! DON’T LET HIM DIE!!”
We decided Leonardo DeCaprio is hot.
Bitches. <3
Pretty Woman:
Pretty okay. Julia Roberts must never dye her hair blonde though.
Ew.
I ate lotsa popcorn.
Hehe
>:D
Skating was fun too. Sadly, I couldn’t find Dance Dance or Sugar We’re Going’ Down.
So I settled with Stacey’s Mom and I Miss You.
There were these two boys following us around
“Does it cost money to request songs?”
“No..”
…
“You’re getting a pretzel?”
“Yes..”
“Those are good..”
Omgwtflolbbq.
I want sherbert ice cream now. Grah.
>.<
Umm…
That’s about…it.
Yea..
…bye then…
………..
THIS ONE TIME I ATE BOILED PEANUTS..AND I’D LIKED TO HAVE GOTTEN SICK!
lolomgwtfbbq!!!!
-Princess Moo Moo ((I hate j00 Billie Joezors.))
