She’s gone. And she’s not going to be jumping up and yelling, “HAHA, GOT YOU SUCKAS.”
My grandmother, mother to all,
has finally found peace.
I was there, I was there…
Rival and I both kissed her, hugged her…
It was our words, telling her…it was okay to die… That she had won for chrissakes….
That she managed to go.
It was hard. So hard. These past few days… I… don’t even remeber it all really. I remeber bits and pieces. Only a few things are clearly there. One, when she said finally remebered who I was, and told Rival and Duo to tell me she loved me, (I was in the room - she just didn’t realize it. Personally, I don’t think she thought of me as a 14-year old. More then likely, she thought I was a child again.)
That, and when she was trying to move and whatnot…. she looked at me…
and just smiled. Smiled that goofy smile she always smiled.
Also, my aunt was leaning down and said, “I love you sissy.”
and even though she could barely talk, she mumbled, “I love you too..”
…. It’s so hard. Especially her last few hours. I was there. A lot of people have not been through the pain of seeing someone they love and adore die right before their eyes. She had died long before she took that final breath. The paleness of their face, the redness in their feet, the blueish tinge in their hands…
One of her eyelids wouldn’t close.
Her eye? Completely blank.
Her breathing was methodical. Her body was just going through the motions…
But anyway, I’ll talk more about it later. Right now,… right now we all need to stick together.
As for my grandfather, (who died years back.)
Whoooo boy, has she got some stuff to say to YOU Grandpa.
I just got back from carnival in Lakeview…or some shit.
Anyway, this band called Dot Dot Dot was there.
I’m in love with them.
I got to hug Adam and he signed my sweatshirt. =3
I hope I can go to the German fest in Rockford to see them again.
Anyway, I’ll post more about them later (once the net is back up.)
-Selph
