well alrighty then.
So, okay. I’ve FINALLY, (FINALLY I tell you!) have decided WTF I wanna do.
and it’s acting.
Ever since I was little I’ve always pretended. I remember the first time after I watched the first bubblegum crisis episode, I went outside to play and forced my friends to reanact the first scene. Second grade I absolutely loved playing Maria in our play. I took on about, 4 different parts in the 8th grade Drama Club play. I’ve always recreated scenes from my favorite movies, (hell today I was pretending to be Peter Carlisle from Blackpool. :O)
Don’t get me wrong, I love writing. but, for one thing, I have
A) Never even FINISHED an actual story. =|
B) I get bored with it too easily.
C) Combining the above, nothing ever gets finished.
I might be good at it, but it doesn’t give me the same thrill that acting does.
I wanna be able to be in movies, and be a star. I know, cliche, but it’s true. I don’t want to be just in plays, (although, I will give credit that it was the begining.), I wanna be in movies. I wanna star alongside some of the people who inspire me to act, (I give big credit to David Tennant for that.)
but how does I do’s this, lol?
It’s a frustrating path, and I know it’s not gonna happen overnight. There’s going to be auditions after auditions.
But how do I FIND said auditions?
I don’t know if I should join an agency, and get an agent. Do I continue persueing Craigslist? Good luck with me on that, I have yet to find something that wants someone my age. most of the actress spots are for 18+
and I have 3 years to go, bucko.
I don’t want to do anything cliche, like do my own youtube broadcast! and you know, PRAY TO GOD IT GET’S NOTICED. I wouldn’t mind doing short films however. But vlogging? That’s gay as hell.
I don’t even care if I’m paid at first.
I suppose I sound desperate, and like every other young aspiring actress. but, it’s…just, something I desperatly want to do.
I watch movies, and I watch T.V shows, and I just feel…hurt almost that I’m not doing that as well.
I could really give a shit less about the fame. I just love the acting.
and really, if the silly little girls over at Disney can become famous, then I see no reason why the hell I can’t do what I love. (and one really wonders if they really enjoy what they do. but, who’s to say? I don’t know! but really, I do dislike Disney stars with a passion..=|)
(although, I do like Ashley Tisdale. she’s pretty.)
(ho hum!)
in any event, this shit does not come with a manual, (nothing ever does! :|), so it’s a bit frustrating for me.
ehhhhhhhhh.
oh also, Ivan? he can go suck cock. 
and Sunday will be my 7th Dot Dot Dot show.
I guess that proves I have no life…
-Selphie,
