Killing cliche's as fast as you invent them.

The memorial for him was today. I watched it live, and even before it started I was having bouts of sobbing.

My dad thinks it’s stupid, that he never did anything to deserve this type of treatment.

But for all the times people have told me, “Selphie, you change people.”, I have to wonder…did they look at Michael?

He spent his life trying to get people to change the world. He spent his life trying to bring happiness to people that needed it.

When he was burned at the Pepsi commercial, he built a fuckin burn unit. He let sick kids into his house to just be kids…even though that ended up being turned on him.

I’m not saying that MJ wasn’t eccentric. He certaintly had his oddities, and his crazy batshitness.

But looking at him now, how can you say he did not try to change the world?

When Duo tells me, “He didn’t do shit, he had two good albums and that was it.” it makes me scared.

I want to be an entertainer. I love acting, it’s what I am. I want to be an entertainer like Michael. Someone who dedicates their life to their craft, and yet still has the time to visit sick people, to bring awareness to the fact there are people dying and dead.

and he didn’t do this shit for publicity like shitheads like Heidi and Spencer fuckfaces. He did it because it is who he is.

So yes, I will gladly cry over Michael Jackson. As someone who is told all the time that I change people, I think I’d know another person like myself if I see one.

and Michael Jackson was one of those people.

Think of his scandals, whathave you, I don’t care.

But in my eyes, he seemed like one of the most sweetest, caring, human I have ever seen.

Make fun of me for crying, I don’t care. But people like that DON’T come around often.

His daughter was in tears, stating he was the best daddy ever.

And I just wish…I just wish that people could really see where I was coming from.

As someone who wants to be the best at what I do, who sees the world as a dark place that needs to be saved….

That’s why I feel close to Michael Jackson.

Even though he was very much like a child, he saw the world for what it was, and he tried so hard to change it. Perhaps even at the expense of his very self.

Michael Jackson, I want to make you proud. I want to change the acting industry just like you changed music. I wish I could’ve known you in this life, but I know we will meet one day. I’m so sorry. But I love you, and I’m happy that you can finally have a sense of peace. Just know that the world is a much better place because of the things you did or attempted to do to make it that way.

I love you. xoxo.

…:\ kk I’m off to go get some tylenol cause my cramping is just driving me batshit crazy.

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